Lyrics

FAILURE

Verse

I don’t know you well,
But I wish I did.
I bet that you can tell,
I’m not a cool kid.
Maybe I’ve got no shot,
That’s what I tell myself.
But I can’t stand the thought of
You with anyone else.

 

CHORUS

Oh, I might seem like an idiot,
That’s cuz I am one.
When push comes to shove,
I’m here to lean on.
Your gorgeous,
I’m decent,
But I can hold you when you need it,
Cuz I’m a failure,
And this failure wants to win.

 

Verse

You don’t know me well,
And maybe that’s a good thing.
I bet that you can tell,
You’re way out of my league.
Oh, maybe I’ve got no shot,
Cuz you’re just too pretty to look at,
But you know that I just thought,
I should tell you that.

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

Lemme tell you my intentions,
Won’t lead to unhappy endings,
You can be my theme song,
Catch the melodies I’m sending.
Had to write a music message,
Terrible at conversation,
Not a straight-shooter,
So I hope you have imagination;

I’m gonna try to be like
Steph in the 4th quarter,
And cast Lebron’s ring straight into the flames of Mordor.
It didn’t matter that Rudy was shorter.
It didn’t matter that Hugh Jackman was looking way older.
Cuz Bucky lost his arm he’s still swingin’,
Liam Niesen’s phone ringin’,
Hope you catch my drift
Because Vin Diesels crew is still speedin’.
State of mine: kinda crazy.
Movie addict: yeah, maybe.
Listen up and read my mind just like Professor X, baby.
(Exhales profusely)

 

CHORUS

 

 

 

KING SUFFERING

Verse

I’m broken.
You broke me.
I’m hurting,
Cuz you hurt me.
I’m dying.
You killed me,
And now all I know is suffering.

I’m drowning.
You drowned me.
I’d float but,
You won’t let me.
I’m on fire.
You ignite me
In all of the best and worst ways.

 

Prechorus

Can it please just stop?

 

CHORUS

Suffering used to be an unknown thing
Now in the world of my emotions it’s the new king.
You crowned it with your betrayal of me
And happiness is the new peasantry.
 

 

Verse

I opened up.
You closed me.
I moved but
You froze me.
I’m trying
But you hate me.
The hatred only furthers my suffering.

 

PRECHORUS

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

I asked you to become my life,
You said sure, then reassured we’d have an awesome time,
But I guess your reassurance was just one big bluff,
Cuz now my life is suffering and yours is doing awesome stuff
Without me.

Can it please just stop?
Can it please just stop?
Can it please just stop?
Why don’t I make it stop?!

ALTERNATE CHORUS

I think it’s time for a revolt, lets get a new king.
I think it’s time to see revolution in the peasantry.
Happiness I crown you my new king.
Now she can have all the fun she wants
Without me.
 
 
 
 

 

 

 

 

THE MOON

Verse 

Have you realized what the moon is?
It’s nothing more than a bright reflection.
Without the sun, what is the moon?
And what am I now, without you?

 

Prechorus

I’m cold and dark.
My life is falling apart.
My heart’s not beating.
Can someone check if I’m breathing?!

 

CHORUS

I’m the moon without a sun,
Cuz my sun left me all alone,
She kept me warm and bright,
‘Til she found a brighter light,
And now I’m just dark,
‘Til I find someone who can change my black to white.
Can you change my black to white?

 

Verse 

Can the moon live without a sun?
I’m barely holding on without one.
Is dark supposed to hurt like this?
Cuz I range from sad to hurt and to pissed.

 

Alternate Prechorus

I’m cold and dark.
My life is falling apart.
I’m alone, my hearts not beating.
Can someone check if I’m breathing?!

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

Fight it.
Fight it.
Fight it.
Find a new light and ignite it.
Is this what my life is?
A fight to find the Brightest?

 

CHORUS

 

 

 

GRAVITY

Verse

I’ve got a tendency to fall in the wrong direction,
A tendency to stupid selfish exploration,
Gravity is dead to me, don’t want its good intentions,
Ive always done what I want with no explanations.

Prechorus

I fall away,I fly through space and chaos,To find a way,To retrieve what I once lost:A heart that beats.

CHORUS

My body’s upsidedown.
My heart is sideways.
I keep searching
In the underground,
Or in the sun’s light rays.
I’m everywhere I shouldn’t be,
Maybe I should just believe
In Gravity.
My heart’s drive has got the best of me,
I know I gotta just believe in Gravity.In Gravity.
In Gravity?

 

Verse

I’ve got a tendency to fall in love way too quickly,
A tendency to fall so far I drown in the deep sea,
Gravity is dead to me, I’ve chosen not to believe,
If what I think I felt is true then I will have to change my destiny.

PRECHORUS

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

I feel You pull me,
But I’m not going.
I know You’re guiding me
To brighter lighting.I am irrational.
My path is unnatural.
I should be rational.
Gravity is natural.

CHORUS

 

 

 

I’M BURNING EVERYTHING

Verse

I came to the fight,
With a knife in my right,
And my life on the line,
That I drew to decide,
To be blind by hindsight,
Or to run from that light,
But my spirits are high,
In the sky like a kite,
And my soul is at risk,
And my thoughts start to slip,
To the place that I’ve been,
I just can’t forget this,
I’ve done wrong I admit,
I’ve been buried in sin,
But I’ll never give in,
To that darkness again!

Prechorus

I get put in rewind,
Time machine in my mind,
To the lies that I am trying to bury alive. Bury alive.But they out-number me,
And they all start to think,
I’m too weak,
I can’t be strong enough I’m gonna die.
I’m gonna die!

 

CHORUS

I’m gonna fight today,
‘Til all my demons hide away,
I’m gonna fan the fire until I can’t control the flame,
Swept up in the blaze,
Lit by the songs I sing,
If passion is the gasoline, then I’m burning everything!

 

WARCRY

 

Bridge

The wildfire.
Temperature higher.
Burn the desire.
Scorching the liar inside,
X6

Prechorus

 
X2

 

WARCRY

 

CHORUS

 

WARCRY

 

 

 

MOVING ON

Verse 

Life was going perfectly,
I thought it was so good,
But then, unexpectedly,
It went under the hood
My emotions were tested.
My heart was shot, yeah.

This is reality.
Life is not a dream, no.
This is not a fantasy.
Shame is gonna fight me,
But I will not be bested,
No I will not.

CHORUS

So I will keep moving, moving on.

 

Verse 

I thought that I could run away,
But this is the real deal.
Oh, I can’t escape, I need to stay,
No matter how I feel.
I’m down, but I’m not dead.
I’ll give it what I’ve got.

CHORUS

 

Bridge

Rejection is God just sayin’ wrong direction
 

 

CHORUS

 

 

 

IN THE LIGHT

 

 

Intro

 

Uno, Dos, Tres, Four!

 

Verse 

I’m a cali beach day.
I’m a summer sun’s ray.
I’m a crystal clear lake.
I’m a crashing blue wave.

 

Prechorus

I’m the joy of a vacation,
Cuz you’re my soul’s fixation.
Sunlight is all I take in.
No darkness makes its way in.

 

Chorus

Cuz I’m doing just fine,
I’m doing alright,
I am doing better than the letters O and K,
I am way up high,
My life is just right,
Cuz I’m alright,
I’m in the light.

 

Verse 

I’m a rollercoaster.
I’m a full toaster.
I’m a coast to coaster.
I’m marshmallow roaster.

 

PRECHORUS

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

I hadn’t written a happy song in a long time,
I had to take a step back and actually go live my life,
But now I’m in a place where it feels like I’m doing alright,
I’m even joking ‘bout toastin’ s’mores, got jokes on my mind.A year ago my mind was on The King and on “The Moon,”
And I was lost and hurt and wandering, still chasing after you,
And now a year later I guess I can finally see the truth:
You find your life the second you stop taking every breath for you.Cuz there’s so many people out there tryna get by,
Just take a step outside and try to pry your eyes wide,
Just take a single little moment out of your time,
And use it to go make a difference in another life.

 

CHORUS

 

 

 

LETTERS

 

HOOK

I was alone inside my head,
I put my pain into my pen.
This music’s hard to share so get to know me through these letters.
 
 

 

Dear Classmates,

 

 
If you found this letter,
It means I left it sitting on your desk.
My band followed your account on Instagram,
You never followed back?
I’m the guy across the row,
Hiding underneath his hat.
You didn’t even know I made the music
And matter of fact,
I’m the last person in the world you would expect to rap,
Walk in class, always last, music in my ears on blast,
You thought I was socially uncomfortable or really deaf,
You didn’t know the beat filling my ears was just my next attack.
I’m the kid that you ignore because I always dress depressed,
Unless you met me sweatin’ playing covers on the street you passed.
You didn’t throw your money in the case;
Guess I sounded bad?
You say I never gave my name, but tell me did you ever ask?
This music is my life’s story,
Turn the page to get to know me.
Skip the song, oh, was I boring?
Spill my guts, was that too gory?
I just thought that you might like to know what’s going on inside,
I bet I see you follow back when I get home, you’re on that hype.
I guess to end this letter I’ll just say that you should light a candle,
My thoughts tend to get a little dark,

 

Sincerely, Daniel.

 

 
 

HOOK

 

 
 

Dear Teachers,

 

 
If you found this letter
You’re probably surprised to hear my story,
I seem happy,
I seem friendly,
Seems to you I’m doing ok,
Then I linked you up to listen to my DEMOS,
And you thought it was cute I recorded on a potato,
But then you saw the numbers,
You’re like, “Wait a minute this kid’s got support!
His friends and family paying dollars,
Selling DEMOS out the door!
Let me take another listen,
Didn’t hear thosE words before!”
You can’t believe that this is the same kid that just walked out your door.
But this when you realize that your student’s got a lot of problems,
Kinda sounds depressed, and really stressed, and sorta like he’s fallen
Off the edge,
“I think maybe I’ll call him.
First, lemme go home so I can finish off the album.
But wait, that last song? It sounds like he’s got it figured out!
I always knew he followed God, I didn’t know he’d been through Hell,
But look he got there! It seems to me he’s doing ok now!”
Just wait the songs won’t ever end, got 53 more written down.
So Miss or Mister,
You’ve reached the end and now you finally know me.
Will you still subscribe? Or were my songs a little too informing?
If they were then I won’t blame you if I see that you hit cancel.
Now I’m walking out that door again,

 

Sincerely, Daniel

 

 
 

HOOK

 

 
 

Dear Daniel,

 

 
If you found this letter,
It means that we’re still tryna understand,
God gives us trials, gets us through them, then we do it all again.
And in the future, I guess I’m still tryna make amends.
I listen to this track because I need to hear what I once said.
No one gets us, we’re unique, there’s no one else inside our head,
So when we’re sick and need the cure there’s only one place we can get it.
Look at your wrist and read that verse and don’t you dare forget
That all the pain and hurt are preparation for what lies ahead.
We started out depressed but God gave us a purpose,
And even when we felt lost He showed us where the church was.
When we had to change, He gave us strength to do it.
We needed to express, that’s when He gave us all our music.
If you’re hearing this it means you still remember walking down those halls empty and hallow couldn’t swallow that you’d have to see tomorrow but what followed was the peace amidst the sorrow when you saw that really God was reaching his arms out to help us breathe it all out.
Maybe you played this track because you think you’re there again,
And if it’s true I think you need to kill the dark you’re living in.
We did it once and did it twice and over and over again,
So run it back and do the very same thing that we always did.
I hope it helped,
Going back in time.
But in my own experience it hurts when we rewind.
But I can promise what I said is true,
And that you can trust me,

 

Sincerely, You

 

 
 

HOOK

 

 

 

ANAPHORA (DEAR GOD)

 

Verse 

I want to be anyone but me right now.
I want to seem confident and beat my doubt.
I want to be over this, and breathe it out.
I want to be someone so much more than myself.

 

Prechorus

Why am I what You made me?
Why am I in Your army?
Why am I so unworthy?

 

CHORUS

I am nothing
Why am I here?

 

 

Verse

I can’t find anyone who cares right now.
I can’t get any of my demons out.
I can’t get over this or breathe it out.
I can’t feel love for any piece of myself.

 

PRECHORUS

 

CHORUS

 

 

 

WORTH LIVING FOR / DYING FOR (DEAR GOD PART 2)

Verse

The wind chills my heart,
I feel cold and dark.
If only we were not apart.

I tried it my way,
For personal gain.
And the happiness?
Happiness wouldn’t stay.

Prechorus

Oh, You take it all away,
Make me forget my pain,
My tears fall down like rain,
My God, You’re so amazing.

CHORUS

Why did I turn away?
When nothing heals me more than Your patient grace?
But that is why You’re here to stay,
Cuz without You, God, there’s no life worth living.

 

Verse

I’ve thrown You away so many times.
I trusted in the world’s lies.
Maybe that’s why every good part of me dies?But You pull us from pain and from our dark lives,
So God please pull me from mine.

 

Alternate Prechorus

Oh, You take it all away.
Make me forget my pain.
Don’t let my tears leave stains.
My God, please amaze me.

 

CHORUS

 

Bridge

I will live a life worth living.
I will serve You where You need me.
I will lean on You when they’re pushing.
Cuz You’re a God worth dying for,
And that’s a life worth so much more.

CHORUS

 

Outro

Oh, You take it all away…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 

•5•
•FROM BEHIND THE GLASS•
•Where is the point
If my blade’s dull
The knife in my hand
In my brain’s hole
Fighting myself
Everyday so
Come, tie me down
Re-display hope

Hello everybody, back to how I’m doing
Just take a wild guess on how I am if I’m here writing
Yup, yup, you guessed it, our favorite menace still pulling the strings
I’m still suffocating inside this prison with Suffering
Except as always his prision is turning and evolving
Each time I can predict the shift it changes when I’m falling
I think I have a problem, can’t seem to see any good in all of me
My therapist tries telling me to see I’m doing great things
She said I have a big heart, says I so selflessly bleed
Says it’s evident in our talks I’d die for my Peasantry
But she also told me I deserve all the hope I’m offering
The problem is I try to find it but the fight distracts me

I’m gonna fight today
Cuz I don’t know another way
I tried to fan the fire but sand keeps putting out the flames
The glass suffocates the blaze
My brain lacks all energy
If passion is the gasoline, then I’m running on empty

It’s not that I’m not passionate
Let me clarify
It’s that I’m so busy and stressed that I’m spent
Now it’s confession time
I planned to be done with the book but I’m on chapter 7
Now I have to set it aside, I’m a disappointment
I can’t keep up with all this between appointments
Can my therapist follow me home
Watch how I work
Watch and observe all the sand that’s surrounding me
When I got my last tattoo
The tattoo artist said “holy…. you’re not even 20?
It sounds like you lived enough life to be in your hundreds”
I know, my life carries some weight, but I promise you
I AM NOT DONE YET
ITS NOT HOW I WANT IT
THE SEASONS ALL CHANGE AND MY HOURGLASS FLIPS AND IT STUNS ME
BUT IM STILL HERE DRUMMING
IM STILL HERE WRITING AND SINGING MY MUSIC BECAUSE
I TRUST WHO IM BECOMMING
NOT BECAUSE OF ME BUT BECAUSE I KNOW GODS IN FRONT OF ME
BUT LISTEN NOW MONEY
MAY BE TIGHT BUT I’LL PUT OUT WHATS NEXT IF IT MEANS I DIE LONELY AND HUNGRY

I’m gonna fight today
Cuz I don’t know another way
I tried to fan the fire but sand keeps putting out the flames
The glass suffocates the blaze
My brain lacks all energy
If passion is the gasoline, then I’m running on empty

Lift me up, Peasantry
I need your support
Never the best at asking for help
But today I can recognize I’m nearly a corpse
I need someone, of course
To resuscitate what is dying
I have these demons inside me
That weigh me down, breaking out, manifesting in my writing
Carving these lyrics into the dark glass
Hoping, praying that someone, please, anyone may come and find me
PLEASE REIGNITE ME
PLEASE USE THIS BLUEPRINT AND FIND ME
PLEASE USE THIS MUSIC AND FIGHT PLEASE
PEASANTRY UNITE PLEASE
DO NOT LET SUFFERING EVER DIVIDE AND LET LIGHT BLEED
NEVER LET LIFE CEASE
PLEASE STAY WITH ME AND WE’L FIGHT NO MATTER WHAT HIS LIES BREED
WE WILL NOT DIE, PLEASE
STAY WITH ME STAY WITH ME STAY WITH ME STAY WITH ME STAY WITH ME STAY WITH ME IM SO ALONE IN HERE DARKNESS IS EVERYWHERE JUST WHEN I THINK IM GOOD LONELINESS TURNS TO FEAR THAT IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH NEVER BEEN GOOD AT LOVE MAYBE IM MEANT TO JUST WASTE AWAY IN THIS STUFF SAND AND TEARS FILL MY LUNGS IS THE WEIGHT JUST TOO MUCH SHOULD I KEEP FIGHTING OR SERVE THE KING ITS TOO MUCH ITS TOO MUCH ITS TOO MUCH

I’m gonna fight today
Cuz I don’t know another way
I tried to fan the fire but sand keeps putting out the flames
The glass suffocates the blaze
My brain lacks all energy
If passion is the gasoline, then I’m running on empty

so here i am
asking for your help
please keep sharing cic and seasons
my mind loves to dwell
in the silence between activity
do they think im good at all?
i just want to give you content
had to put the book down im sorry
i’ll finish soon im just at war with myself
so while i figure myself out can you keep everything running well?
stream the tracks
share the tracks
all of that
our best attack

im sorry
i know i said i’d be back
but i think i need some more time to sit and overthink
•FROM INSIDE MY HOURGLASSALGRUOH•
•5•